I’ve spent the last two years living in Kuwait, a small country in the Middle East near Iraq and Saudi Arabia. No I didn’t get blown up, I’m not scared to live here, I didn’t have to cover myself up, and I wasn’t an outcast. Quite the opposite actually because I love Kuwait.
Seriously though, how has two years just flown by? I got to Kuwait broke as a joke, no real purpose, unhappy as can be, and lost in the sauce of this big ass world. I’m leaving with purpose, I’m leaving with a savings account, and I’m leaving happy… That is, if my boss doesn’t stop trying to get me fired for a job I already quit during the week I’m leaving. Long story. We’ll save that one for a rainy day.
I guess most of you are wondering what my purpose is and why I’m leaving a place I love so much. I started my MBA while living in Kuwait at Strayer University, talk about useful. I know that sounded sarcastic but I’m serious, it was one of the smartest things I’ve done thus far because it’s teaching me how to really work a business. I took a risk last year, I’ve probably invested close to $40,000 of my own money into a clothing business I started called Crops & Cleans. I wanted a business that was going to inspire women to be comfortable in their own skin, while living a fun yet healthy lifestyle. Business is always hard but one thing I’ve learned is you can’t give up and running a business from the other side of the world is hard. Trusting other people to make small decisions on my behalf, being way overcharged on things but not really having a real choice because I’m so far away, and just in general, not being able to fully run my company the way I want to run it because I’m not in the United States. So, that’s my purpose. I’m going home to pursue entrepreneurship. I’m diving head first into the deep end with no flotation device. I saved up enough money to last me a couple of months of bills and I started working with a really awesome hair company on the side but my company is not going to fail because I didn’t try or because I was greedy, I won’t let it. I’m excited to take this new venture by storm and if anyone has any advice, send it my way because I’m done working for people.
There were a lot of factors in my decision to leave Kuwait, running my apparel company was just one of them. I couldn’t stand my new boss, micro-management and “age”ism (if that’s even a thing) just aren’t my cup of tea. Some people like when someone micro-manages every second of their life but I’ve been on my own since I was sixteen, it doesn’t really float my boat. Another reason, my boyfriend. Some of you have seen me post about my goofball boyfriend on social media, others of you know who he is. We started as work out buddies on my birthday and before you know it, he was riding off base in the trunk of my car every day for weeks straight. I didn’t think anyone would be good enough to “lock me down” after my seven year relationship gone terribly wrong, but I was wrong. Good people walk into your life when you least expect it and he was one of those people. The final reason I’m leaving. If you’ve read my blogs over the last year, it’s no secret that I’ve been battling with some serious emotions. My past has come back to haunt me and no matter what I’ve done, I haven’t been able to forgive or forget things that have happened. I’ve decided I need some counseling beyond writing because as therapeutic as writing is, I want a real shot at pure happiness in life beyond this blog.
Leaving Kuwait had nothing to do with the country or the people in the country, I’ve made so many awesome friends and created so many memories. I feel bad for those who don’t travel or have never had the opportunity to live abroad, it humbles you and makes you realize how good home truly is. The driving may suck here, but I’ve experienced so many things I would never have had the opportunity to do back in Orlando. I’ve traveled all over the GCC and Europe because they’re so close to Kuwait. I’ve seen camels. I mean seriously, where in Florida would you ever have the opportunity to see camels. I’ve been to some of the best house parties in the Middle East, my favorite was when we got hungry and ordered a taco food truck. Yes, a food truck, to cook us food. The lifestyle here is different, as is every place, but I’ve learned more about myself in two years than I have throughout my whole life. I think it’s important to get out of your comfort zone, take risks and remember life is short. We often get stuck in the now of things versus the outcomes and possibilities. I almost gave up on my company eight months ago, I almost sold it because I didn’t think I could do it but boy was I wrong. You can achieve anything you set your mind to, overcome any obstacle if you really want to, and be successful if you put in the hard work. Living abroad changed me. It’s made me realize who I’m meant to be, what my purpose in life is and it’s given me a family on the other side of the world. I’m grateful for that. It’s not goodbye, it’s just see ya later because I’ll be back. Kuwait, I love you. Until my next post, inshalla.